We'll See Tonight Kung Anong Isasagot Niya

by: asianfil

I'm not really into Pure Sex and Carnal Lust. So I hope you guys would appreciate my work. I know this site is more into plain Sex and I respect that! Medyo Jumpy etong story ko kaya make sure you check the (*) asterisk sign on each paragraph... Malalaman mo rin once u start reading it...I just hope that you guys will have the interest of reading my work which is basically about LOVE! OA talaga! * I first knew Mat in my Eng. 2 class last semester. We were classmates back then but we didn't take the same courses. He was an ECE student while I was a Computer Engineering student. He had the physical features of a typical campus crush. And unfortunately, he carried also with him ang ugali ng mga typical na campus crushes, ang pagiging "mahangin." We were never acquainted with each other during the first half of that semester. In other words, hindi niya ako kilala. I've heard kasi na allergic siya sa bakla. Puwes! Mas lalo naman akong allergic sa mga taong "mahangin" noh! But in fairness, ang gwapo niya talaga! ** Ngeek!!! That was my first reaction when I found out na may classmate akong bakla. I was referring to Yudel. I knew about his name from one of my female friends na kaibigan din niya. Since I had this phobia about gays, I never bothered to talk to him nor said "hi" to him. I made sure na hindi kami pareho ng grupo just to avoid talking to him. I know I was rude but what can I do, I was allergic to his kind. But in fairness to him, iba siya compared sa mga kalahi niya-he's matalino at very talented. * Our first encounter with each other was in a place that none of us ever thought of bumping each other, the men's room. Before our teacher arrived, I made a quick visit to the men's room, alam mo na "tawag ng kalikasan." What I did not know was that tinatawag din pala ng kalikasan si Mat. So when I opened the door of my cubicle, he was there looking right at me and told me "Ano ka babae? Ang tagal mo naman!" All I said was sorry, a sympathetic sorry with my eyes looking down. Ewan ko ba kung bakit ako nag-apologize eh pwede naman siyang umihi sa wall. ** I could not believe myself na magkabangga kami sa banyo, the most unlikely place to bump a person at siya pa. I could not stop myself from saying those mean words to him kasi nga maiihi na ako. But back then, I thought na he deserved it, ang tagal niya kasi. But what really struck me was when he said sorry. I felt his sincerity to his words. Kung ibang bakla pa yun, nakipag-away na yun sa akin or worst, would look down directly at my partly unzipped pants and start imagining how big mine is. He just said sorry with his face looking down on the floor and left. * The next meeting, I was really surprised dahil kinausap ako ni Mat and asked me kung kelan ang midterm exams. Of course, being casual in my actions, sinagot ko siya na next week na ang exam. Aba! Humirit pa! He even asked for my notes sa coverage ng exam at binigay ko naman. He then told me his name at sinabi ko naman, "I already know." ** I was so intrigued by his personality that the following meeting I asked him kung kelan ang midterm exam. He was nice naman and answered my question. Di pa ako nakuntento and I asked him again if I could borrow his notes sa exam. Before I went back to my friends, sinabi ko ang name ko at alam na pala niya. Right after class, ewan ko ba kung ano ang pumasok sa isip ko that I asked him for a quick snack. * I was even more surprised when after class he invited me for a snack at the canteen. Siyempre tinanggap ko agad. It's very unusual and very rare for a handsome guy like Mat na magyaya na kumain sa isang baklang tulad ko. Feeling ko ang gandaganda ko that time. Yun na nga, we ate sa canteen at nalaman ko that Mat was a real joker pala. All the time that we were together, he did nothing else but make me laugh. Nagtaka talaga ako at first but later naisip ko na maybe he just wanted to make friends with me. After that, nag-uusap na kami palagi, we say "hi" every time we bump to each other inside the campus, and sometimes, nililibre ko siya or siya ang nanglilibre sa akin. I also found out na yung pagiging mahangin niya ay ginagawa niya ito because he wanted those women and my kind na maturn-off sa kanya. He did not want people following him nor admiring him kasi parang mga stalkers. ** Everything was going well between the two of us. Nag-uusap na kami palagi. In fact, I transferred to another chair sa likuran niya to make it easier for both of us to talk. Nililibre ko pa nga siya several times. Nalaman ko na hindi pala talaga siya palasalita tulad ng karaniwang bakla. But every time he talked, may sense talaga ang sinasabi niya. I think mas matalino pa siya kesa sa akin. Our friendship went deeper and deeper. Nagtataka na nga ang mga male buddies ko. Sinasama ko kasi siya every time the guys invited me out. And I invited him several times na pumunta sa boarding house ko. * I was really happy na talaga. Mat and I were really getting too close. Too close na inimbita niya ako sa boarding house niya to sleep over and it happened several times. During those sleep overs, ilang beses din niya akong tinukso in a jokingly way. Pinigilan ko talaga ang sarili ko dahil ayokong magbago ang relationship namin. He would look at me in the eye seductively or maghuhubad siya in front of me with nothing else covering his manhood but his briefs. Pero tinigilan ko talaga ang sarili ko. ** I didn't know what went my head at inakit ko siya nang pabiro. I even changed clothes in front of him with only my briefs on. Pero belib din ako sa kanya, di man lang siya nagpakita ng pagnanasa sa akin. It came to a point na parang ordinaryong scenario na lang ang mga seductive moves ko sa kanya kasi benabalewala naman niya. After the end of the semester, I suggested to Yudel na lumipat sa boarding house ko since my roommate transferred to another boarding house. * I was shocked when Mat suggested na lumipat ako dun sa tinutuluyan niya. I thought he was joking but he looked at me so seriously kasi sabi niya nag-iisa na lang daw siya sa room niya. At first, I hesitated kasi I said to myself na going beyond boundaries na 'to. Baka kung saan pa ito hahantong. Pero istupida talaga tayong mga bakla, in the end pumayag din ako. * And the second half of the school year had began. Hindi pa dumating si Mat mula sa bakasyon. I was left alone in our room when unexpectedly a girl, mga kaedad rin namin, knocked at the door and was looking for Mat. So my initial response was to ask her who she was and why was she looking for Mat. She answered politely naman na siya si Leah, friend daw niya at hinahanap daw niya si Mat dahil gusto niyang ibigay sa kanya ang bagong cel number niya. Ang gaga! Pwede namang i-send ang number niya through text di ba? Pero feel niya talagang ibigay ang number personally. Siyempre sinabi ko na wala pa si Mat. *** I really wondered kung sino ang baklang ito. Then I realized na siguro siya si Yudel ang baklang sinasabi ni Mat na close friend niya. So I left na lang to him my new number. Mataray din siya. The next day na dumating si Mat. He texted me kasi that's how I knew about it. Sabi pa nga niya that we would meet at the park. I told him kasi that we need to meet. So I went there earlier may importanteng bagay akong sasabihin sa kanya. ** When I arrived at our room, wala si Yudel nasa school pa so I immediately texted Leah na pupunta na ako agad. I was wondering kung ano ang sasabihin niya. Leah and I, we had been on for four months. Ito ang isang bagay na hindi ko pa sinasabi kay Yudel kasi I thought it would be inappropriate to tell him kasi bakla siya. These matters should only be discussed by your real male friends at isa pa, wala pa kaming plano to go public. So I went to see Leah. Nagtaka ako kasi nauna si Leah sa akin na dumating so I thought it must really be important. *** "Mat, sorry to tell you this - I've found someone special sa Cagayan de Oro," right there and then sinabi ko sa kanya the moment he was in front of me. I was waiting for any violent reactions coming from him but nothing happened. He just stayed quiet and sat on the bench. I tried to talk to him but he was blank. So before I left, I said "I'm sorry." ** I could not believe she dumped me. Sa gwapo kong 'to pinagpalit niya ako sa ibang lalaki. I thought we were going so well. We never encountered any problems sa relationship namin. Siguro dahil sa sobrang okay ng relationship namin, Leah fell out of love. Tinawagan ko agad si Yudel after Leah left me in the park. I was crying when I called him on his cell phone. It was a good thing that his class just ended. So when I got back at our room, he was there sitting and waiting for me. * Bakit kaya umiiyak ang gagong 'to? First time ko siyang nakita na umiyak. The moment he entered the room, he hugged me so tight and cried like a baby. So pinaupo ko siya and tried to console him by rubbing his back. Dun ko nalaman na girlfriend pala niya si Leah and that she broke up with him because of a third party involved. Na-hurt din ako siyempre. I thought best friend niya ako yun pala may di sinasabi sa akin. But instead of scolding him, niyakap ko na lang siyang muli. ** Yudel was like my angel. He was there all the time nang iniyakan ko si Leah for two straight nights. Uminom pa nga ako the secod night. Yudel went out to the city to buy some things sa school. So I was left alone in our room. Bumili ako ng tatlong grande. When Yudel arrived, I was already drunk. The last bottle of grande was almost empty. When Yudel saw my situation, lying on the floor laughing, he carried me nang walang pag-alinlangan at hiniga sa kama. * Nabigla ako nang bigla akong yakapin ni Mat right after na mahiga ko siya sa kama. So I fell down at his side. He was actually laughing habang yakapyakap niya ako. Sabi niya "Buwisit niyang mga babae! Malalandi! Di tulad mo Yudel, matino at mapagkakatiwalaan. Ikaw na lang kaya ang syota ko. Ano? Gusto mo tayo na? Yudel, I love you!" I got irritated to what he just said and told him to let go of me and that he was not in his sane mind. ** It just went out of my mouth. Siguro dahil sa kalasingan o dahil sa depression. Naiintindihan ko ang naging reaction ni Yudel sa sinabi ko. Sino ba naman ang hindi? A person saying, "I love you" to you and he's drunk, magagalit ka talaga. Hindi maniniwala sa'yo yung tao 'coz your drunk. But seriously speaking, I maybe drunk then but I still knew what I was saying to him especially the last part. I love Yudel but it's a different kind of love unlike Leah. Dun ko rin na-realize na mas matatanggap ko pang wala na si Leah in my life kesa si Yudel ang mawala. * Gusto ko ring sabihin sa kanya sa kanya na mahal ko rin siya but it was useless, he was drunk. Alam ko naman na sinasabi niya ang bagay na ito because he was not in his sane mind. Pero gaga talaga ako, sinabi ko pa rin. But at least nang sinabi ko sa kanya yun, he fell asleep na. ** I did not notice na nakatulog na pala ako. In the morning when we had our breakfast, it was like nothing happened the other night. I asked Yudel about it and all he said was that I was drunk and I was not in my self last night. I guess I was not my self last night. Yan na lang ang sinabi ko sa sarili ko. But I was definitely sure sa mga sinasabi ko and the things I thought that night. * Naaalala kaya ni Mat ang mga pinagsasabi niya nung gabing yun? I hope he does. I'll ask him tonight kung ano ba talaga ang naramramdaman niya sa akin. At least, as early as now, alam ko na ang mangyayari. I won't be expecting anything from him. At least, hindi na ako aasa pa. We'll see tonight kung ano ang isasagot niya. ** Damn! I hope hindi magbabago ang patungo ni Yudel sa akin after that night. I want to know his opinion and feelings about this matter. Gusto kong magkaliwanagan na kaming dalawa. Ayokong tumagal pa ito. I'll ask him tonight kung ano ba talaga ang naramramdaman niya sa akin. At least, as early as now, alam ko na ang mangyayari. I won't be expecting anything from him. At least, hindi na ako aasa pa. We'll see tonight kung ano ang isasagot niya. *** Ano na kaya ang kalagayan ni Mat ngayon? I hope he's doing well. Letseng lalaking yun! May asawa na pala't anak! Pinaasa pa ako!