My Story

by: tactophile 09

Hi sa lahat it is actually my first time to write here. Just enjoyed stuff here and thought of sharing my own story. Before anything else let me introduce my self. Just call me tacto, my chat friends know me by that, I'm just 19 yrs old, working for a call center here in makati. 5'7" yata? (di tlga ko sure sa height ko, pero its around that.) Moreno, matalino daw (pwera yabang), short hair, payat (and i mean PAYAT). Best asset? My smile. It's not the best smile you will see, but its real. When i was just a child i was not aware na i was different, basically kasi kala ko ako yung normal at sila yung iba, but then again, di rin nagtagal it came to me that it was the other way around, ako yung iba at sila yung normal. I grew up in a house na all girls ang nakatira, kaya naman i thought na its ok to act sissy and feminine kasi yun ang nakikita ko, my dad works abroad that's why i really didnt have any male figure at home, actually hanggang ngayon pa din naman eh. When it dawned on me that i was different, i got so afraid, kasi baka bugbugin ako ng nanay ko, mas maton pa kasi sakin yon. Time passed by and my mom only had her suspicions but she never really knew if i was gay or what, but nung high school ako finally umamin na din ako. and it was actually better. back then the only thing i knew about being gay is just being feminine and all, little did i know na there are some other things that can be done. It was my fourth year in high school, graduating, still i didnt have any relationships until i started to join this party, di ko naman kasi talaga ugali na makipagflirt, kaya tumanda ako ng ganun na virgin pa din. Until it was our pre graduation party, it was organized by my friends syempre kasama na din ako dun, since my friends are all straight guys and a few girls, inuman talaga yung focus ng party, it was held at my friends house, well off talaga siya kaya malaki yung bahay nila, his parents are always away kaya pwedeng pwedemaginom dun at magparty, kahit nga nandun yung parents nya pwede pa din na maginom, bawal lang masyadong magingay. The party started, since Ako lang sa barkada ang alanganin, ako ang nagsilbing emcee ng party, it was not that formal,but i do all the introductions and acquaintances to each and everyone, akala nga nung iba ako yung may ari ng bahay eh. and since ako ang muse ng barkada, all my "boy" friends (boyfriend kasi tawag ko sa mga guy friends ko sa tropa)was around me dancing. Then i eyed a guy dun sa may kanto ng bahay nila, he is cute, moreno, matangos ang ilong, latino type, med built, 5'8" or taller, and the most important of all, he is looking at me. then he smiled so i smiled back. wala saking malisya yun, kasi di talaga ako malisyoso, then Erwin (one of my "boy" friends) introduced the guy to me after dancing while we are sitting in the couch. He was Harvie (kasi Hervacio real name nya.) Mas gwapo pala siya sa malapitan, Then we shook hands, mahigpit siya kumamay pero ok lang yun sakin, sanay na ko sa mga barkada kong lalake. I wasnt really the friendly type, I'll just smile first but i dont usually talk first, but he does, he asked me so many questions, kulang na laang ipasulat nya sakin yung sagot. at one point i was thinking na he really likes me. After nya magtanong, i took my turn and asked him a few questions myself. I learned he was an only child, well off din ang family and was quite torn, broken family kasi, dont have their father living with them. after that interrogation, i went over to my other friends not expecting to see harvie again. All of them were tipsy and all, but not me malaki ang bahay alak ko, para nga daw ako tambay kung uminom, kasi sobrang taas ng tolerance ko sa alak. Aside from me, there was another person on the house na hindi intoxicated, Harvie. so kami na lang dalawa nagusap, kasi yung mga iba ayun, bangag na sa sobrang dami ng alak na nainom, di naman kaya, at yung iba, talagang tulog na, while almost half of all of them were still drinking and saying their stories to whoever listens to them. Harvie and I smoked sa guest room, dun lagi kasi ako nagsstay everytime nagpupunta ko sa bahay nila Erwin, close kami ng mama niya. so dun na lang kami nagstay ni Harvie. At first, tahimik lang kaming dalawa, then he suddenly asked me if i like him. told him I do. because he is cute but that is all. Then he told me he likes me, at the very moment i blushed and dont know what other things i felt, it was teh first time someone told me he likes me, im used to my friends hugging me and sometimes even kissing me, pero from someone i barely know, and someone i obviously like hindi pa. I did not know how to react, muka akong pusang nagulat, as in speechless, until, i said "Thank You" that was by far the most stupid answer i have given for such a statement. He smiled back at me then who knows who started, we kissed, deeply, with out tongues, tangled iwth each other's, it was long, seemd never ending. i only realized we're done when i felt cold, i dont have my clothes on me now. and so is he. we were both naked. He was touching me all around it felt so good, it was teh first time soemone touched me that way, and just like instinct, i touched him, tha same way he did on me, all that can be heard were moans, he pushed my head down, I knew what he was making me do, i see it in the movies, i held his dick , it was thick and long, 7" as i measured it through my palm, it was already wet with his precum, i licked his belly button first, let my tongue play the hairy burrow, it was but exquisite, i dont know what i am feeling but it was damn great, while i was doing that, he was playing with my nipples, it feels so good, i cant explain the feeling. Then i went lower, down to whre the glorious man meat is, i licked his balls first while im jacking his manhood off, i can feel its blood ruching through the whole organ it was but swelling. his balls were hanging like dangling fruits under his crotch, i licked up, from his balls up to the base of his shaft, he moaned, and pushed my head to his crotch, "isubo mo naaaaaaaaaa!!!" that was the first comprehendable word he said, and so i did, i took his dick all in my mouth, i dont know how it got all into my mouth but i did it, i licked its head like a lollipop, and licked it up and down as if it was a popsicle. it was in my throat when i felt his dick swell and his legs stiffen and before i knew it "aaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh" he was moaning like hell, and his manjuice flowed down my throat, and before i caould speak a word he kissed me deeply and jacked me off, like there was no tomorrow and as if the world was on me, i came, and it was teh best cum i had. After the night, hindi na namin kailangan magusap, basta kami na lang bigla, it all happened very fast, pinakilala ko siya sa nanay ko na at first ay di rin alam kung papano magrerespond, pero after a few weeks, nakapagadjust na siya, we had sex almost everyday basta my time, yung place hindi problema kasi he has his own, he lives away from his mom, his dad pays for his apartment, oh he was 22 btw. i was 16 then. we have shared a lot of memories, the whole time na magkasama kami ay hindi kami nagaaway, everything just fell into place, or so i thought. all the while i did not know and he did not tell me na inaayos na pla ng papa nya yung papers nya so he can leave for canada, i did not know it until his ate, my friend, told me that he was leaving for canada in a month. It was like i fell deaf for a moment, i dont know what to do, it was the first time i felt the feeling of being loved and loving, i was a frigid and was not so mindful of intimate loving when i was a child, btu it is different now. He came over to our house and looked for me, i was in my room, but i told my mom to tell him that i am not feeling well and i dont wanna talk to anybody. and so he left, i was like that for a week, i seldom eat, and i seldom sleep, i just cried, i cried very hard, and harder, until on a Friday i saw him on my room's doorstep, i froze on my bed and my tears just flowed like a river. He then told me that he knows that i already know thst he is leaving and its gonna be for good. all he told me were apologies and that he doesnt want me hurt, i was so sad with what he said i thought i had my share of loneliness just by knowing it, but it was harder hearing it from him. he left witha a sad face and i never knew that it was gonna be the last time taht ill ever see him in his whole existence. just like a turtle i hid inside my shell, i was still jolly and all btu i nevr fell for someone again, it seemed natural i do not control my self i just dont fall, dont know why. i even had to reassure myself that i am likeable and that there are other men there that can love me the same way or so much better, but just when i thought i was ready to fall again, i cannot, i do dates and eb's and seb's and all but i just cant get myself attached to anyone. Not that i dont like it to happen, i do, it just wont. i even dated men i cant even imagine i can go out with, but still i really cant get attached. Well, i've already learned to let it be, i dont wana force myself to fall for someone im really not falling for, since i know its not gonna turn out good, just go with the flow, and maybe the right time will just come, im still young and have so many things to do. heheh. And oh, harvie, he came home but i did not know he already did, none of our friends told me i only knew when one of my friends txted me this message--"punta ka ba sa burol ni harvie?" I felt so sad, and cold, i really lost the hope of us being together again. he died of leptospirosis, he got it from drinking from a FUCKING coke in can, 3 weeks after he came here too, according to my friends-go back to me. hearing that was like hell, i came to his wake, and I cannot look at his coffin. His parent's told me they are sorry, but to look at him from afar was all i could do, no tears fell from my eyes, but it felt like darkness all the while, i just felt cold, and when it was his burial, i didnt come, i know i cannot take it, poignant as it may sound but for me it was normal, its just that its unconventional. almost everyone leaves, you just in different ways and means. Up until now i'm still wishing that i've seen him, even for once when he came home, but maybe im just too late. well i know he is happy wherever he is, and so am I. Life is in complete cycle and we cant just be on one side. Hope you liked my story. I'll be posting wilder stories next time. Comments please? I wanna know how is my writing going. au revoir .