Honey - Part 6

by: Lord Adrian

Hello Everyone again...Its me Adrian again. Salamat sa KK at bukod sa mga libro na mga self Help at sa mga kwento dito, Ive finally realized something grand. Di ko sure kung avid reader kayu talaga or not but I contributed some stories here as well. And I was really happy when I shared those to all you! But this time, another theraphy of mine aside from reading books is to write. As you all knew I had a very successful career and a happy relationship with my family and friends. All my friends now knew na iba na ang pagtitinginan namin ni Mike...tila mukha na kaming magasawa! At di narin kaila sa auntie ako at sa insan ko iyon! Sanay na talaga sila makita si Mike sa bahay namin! Hon, I will be coming home late. Meron lang kame ppntahan nang mga ka-ofismates ko!...txt nya sakin Ok...sige dito lang ako sa condo stay! Gawa lang ako reports! Ingat ka! Txt ka kapag pauwi ka na ha! Love u....reply ko sa kanya! Sa 7 days namin na gnawa para sa ating tao...always at walang palya na 3x nalang kami magkita. Either umuuwi sya sa bahay ng ofismate nya to finish their project or sa ofis sya natutulog. I did not bother checking out his stories since I had no issues trusting him. One time, he went home at talagang amoy alak sya! Ung alak pa na yun e sobrang baho dahil un lang ang alak na di ko matiis ang amoy. Binihisan ko sya at pinaliguan. Nagulat ako nang nakita ko ang likod nya...merong bakat ng kuko! Fresh wound! Alam ko di sakin un dahil di namn mahaba kuko ko (Strike One). Di ko na tinanong sa kanya! Now the 2nd time he went home...meron nang kiss mark ung abs nya...dalawa pa! Nangingitim na nga e...feeling ko matagal na syang nandun (Strike 2). Di ko parin sya tinanong. And the 3rd time na paguwi nya iba na ang amoy nang polo nya! Inde Lacoste ang naamoy ko! Di ko rin inaalam kung anong amoy un (Strike 3). Pinabayaan ko parin sya. I've always set a rule on my end para di ako masaktan! Iba na ung tanga sa nagpapaka tanga! One time...he asked me to suck him and to fuck me. I obliged...pero iba na ung feeling. Inde na sya ung dating masuyo or malambing! Basta makaraos sya...tulog agad sya! Hon, is there something wrong? Do you feel comfortable with our relationship? Di ba sabi ko walang lihiman?...tanong ko sa knya when we are having our dinner together. Wala naman taung prob hon e...meron ba dapat ako sabihin or aminin?...balik na tanong nya sakin Sige...ok lang! Time will tell...sabay yuko ligpit ng pinag kainan at drecho sa guest room. Dun ako nagmukmok at umiyak. Flash Back -------------------- Prior to that last conversation we had on our dinner table. I saw some lesions on my shaft. Naging sensitive ang skin around the crown at its really really aching....this would be in my "ari" area. Pmunta ko sa insan ko (kakagraduate lang from medicine) and asked him of what he thinks is going on down there. (Insan ko nga pala e talagang champion sa love life nya with his bf na kapwa doctor din). Pinakita ko sa kanya ung ari ko and he quickly said...Insan patingin mo yan...I think you acquired STD...sabi ng insan ko sakin. That day pmunta ko sa FEU Hospital na malapt sa bahay nila auntie at nagpacheck up ako! Grams at VDRL tests ako. Since they cant really say if this was really Syphillis or HPV ata ung sinabi ni doctora! After the tests it was found out to be Syphillis. They've given me the 2 weeks oral medication treatment. The 2 weeks treatment can't compare to the 5 weeks emotional warfare I had. I was a total wreck. Physically, mahirap mag brief with that condition at buti nalang at nagboboxers ako. Since sensitive ang skin, konting bump lang sobrang sakit na nya (not to mention it also bleed, ung sugat ha). The wound itself mag ooccur ung puss (nana) and if sometimes nga nagbbleed sya. Wla namn kasi syang nilalabas na dugo or nana kapag umiihi unlike Gnohhrea. I was really in denial kung paano ko nakuha un. Ilang beses inexplain ng doctor sakin na, "It can only be acquired through SEX", that is why it was called SEXUALLY TRANSMITTED DISEASE (STD). I can't accept the fact na sa mahal ko pa mkkha un. What does that mean? What does that imply? Why me? Ang daming pmasok sa ulo ko nun. Isang tao lang ang nakaalam sa kalagayan ko, at un ang pinsan ko na doctor. Ung reseta at ung resibo tinago ko. Emotionally, everything just turned to nothing. My work was really affected. I cant eat, sleep nor think straight. All my decisions at work needs second opinions at ung mga hawak kong accounts, I divided it to my teams (which I normally handle, at dagdag trabaho sa subordinates ko...di naman nila job description un e). My boss started to ask me what's going on. I just asked for a 1 week leave for medical reasons. Di na nya ko tinanong dahil obvious naman daw e! I went to the Condo and prepared everything. Di ako makauwi kanila auntie kasi another stress nnmn ang bibigay ko sa kanila at nahihiya na ko! Inilagay ko ang Test results sa hospital, ang resibo ang reseta at ang gamot sa side table sa kwarto namin ni Mike...in plain site para makita nya. Finally, he arrived at nakahanda na rin ung pagkain sa kitchen.. Lumabas ako at sinalubong sya at hinila ko sa kitchen para kumain and started to ask the questions...and that's it. Present time ------------------- Nasa loob na ko ng guest room crying my heart out at di ko na tlaga kaya! Ibang klase ung stress level na un..hirap huminga at hirap huminga. Para kang papatayin (Anxiety Attack kaya un?). I just heard a hard and heavy thump on the door.... Hon...please buksan mo ung pinto...I can explain everything....please hon please usap tau!...sigaw ni Mike sa pinto. All I can at that moment was to scream so loud while punching the door. Ayaw ko marinig ung boses nya at ung kalabog nya sa pinto kaya sinasabayan ko ng ingay. At that moment di ko na talaga kinaya and all I remember after that was, I was in the hospital. I have oxygen plugged in my nose, my hands were wrapped in a bandage and I was lying in a bed na amoy alcohol of some sort. Nakita ko na nakatayo si Mike sa pintuan at kausap ung doctor. Di ko maintindhan ung snasabi ng doctor since medyo malayo sila at ung TV sa kwarto e malakas. Iho...are you okay?...tanong ni Doc sakin Hon...are you okay...tanong ni Mike Doc...nasang hospital ako? Ano gnagwa ko dito?...tanong ko ulet sa doctor na di tinitignan si Mike Iho...you had a mild anxiety attack...di kinaya ng katawan mo at...sabi ni doc Diko na maintindhan sinabi ng doctor dahil alam ko na sakit ko at alam ko narin kung bakit ako nagka ganon. Nagpasalamat ako sa doctor and knowing na pede na rin ako madischarge sa hospital. Umalis na ung doctor. Akin na ung celfon mo....sabi ko ke Mike na di ko parin tinitignan Auntie nandto ko sa Medical City...room @#! paki sabi kay insan na sunduin ako...nabali ung kamay ko kaya nagpabenda ko sa kamay ngaun....sabi ko nang malumanay kay auntie habang nakatalikod kay Mike. Hon, please hear me out?...pagsusumamo ni Mike Mike please....una ung sugat mo sa likod na hugis kuko...pangalawa ung kissmark sa abs mo at pangatlo ung pabango mo....ano un? Gaguhan??? Di ako kumibo dahil alam mo ang tama at alam mo na nagiintay ako....so how do you explain that?..... Pero....sagot ni Mike I asked you numerous times if there was any problems between us...then I thought...being comfortable with your loved one is not an issue its actually a blessing....I dunno Mike how to put it...putol ko sa explanation nya But Im not saying that.....sagot ni Mike Paki amin nalang Mike...sige na please...wag na natin pahirapan sarili natin...sambit ko sa kanya Anong aaminin ko?...tanong ni Mike Putang ina ka Mike!!! Tang ina mo rin noh? Kung kaya ko pa sarili ko ngaun inupakan na kitang tarantado ka! Minahal kita ng lubusan...binigay ko lahat sau...kahit di mo hiniling nandyan...tapos ganun lang? Ibabaling mo lang sa tarantadong Lance na un???? Ha Mike Ha??? Sigaw na naiiyak na ko. Ano??? tanong ulet ni Mike Narinig ko usapan nyo minsan...so sya pala si Bhe na tinatawag tawag mo?....at malamang sa kanya mo rin nakuha yung sakit na binigay mo sakin! Tangina mo kung idedeny mo pa yan! Lahat ng resulta nasa kamay mo! Alam mo na hindi ako tumingin sa iba at kahit kanino! Ikaw lang ang minahal ko! Tapos ganyan ang igaganti mo? Tang ina mong gago ka! Umiiyak na ko at sumisgaw ulet at that time at biglang pasok ang doctor. Please Mike, just leave me alone. Just leave me....I dont want to see you face ever again! But Lance and I had nothing special compare to what we have...sagot na mabilis ni Mike. All I know at that time is I've reached the only thing that my hand can reach at that time and threw it to Mike....Puta ka...umalis ka na! Di na kita kailangan! Inamin mo rin tarantado ka! Mamatay ka na!...at lumabas na si Mike Nagpahinga na ko dahil narin sabi ng doctor at ayaw ko naman talagang mamatay dahil sa isang lalaking tulad ni Mike. Dumating ang auntie ko and I explained everything to them na nabali ung kamao ko dahil sa kakasuntok sa gym at napasobra! I didnt tell them about Mike's infidelity! There's no point. It's been a month that I've moved out from Mike's Condo. STD has already cleared up, but the pain remains and I dunno when I can accept everything that happened to me! I changed my number and specifically asked my auntie and cousins not to let Mike in our house. Un ang 1 rule na talagang bngyan ko ng matinding conviction para mapoint out ko sa kanila na "Everything with Mike is through". Nkkta ng Auntie ko na parati pmupnta si Mike sa bahay! But Ive rented my own place! My officemates keep on telling me na tinatanong ni Mike kung nasan ako even my friends...pero I specifically asked them not to indulge him of the pleasure. Upto now, di ko sya kinakausap or nakikipag kita. Di ko parin alam kung kelan ko sya haharapin. Di ko rin alam kung gsto ko pa sya kausapin or tanggapin sa gnawa nya! Im in a loss right now and writing all of these makes it a little help to bear it. Thank you! And be careful always! More power to KKK and God